“Because it's of my own volition.”

On sudden realisation- shit it's the last day of April tomorrow. Yikes, what have i gotten myself into. Sometimes i doubt myself, maybe JC ain't the right choice for me. But on deeper thoughts, well actually i ain't doing that bad yet. I hope the yet doesnt come. Right here right now i'm stuck with Redox, freaking redox chemistry.
Say if i hadnt gotten myself into this study mess, -study mess in SRJC, i probably wouldnt have met you, hahaha, where is this getting to.
Back from my randomness, i'm gonna start ranting. Midyears is in 3 weeks and i dont feel myself getting serious about it. People are studying really hard, those mugging everyday till late nights, waking up in the wee hours of the morning to revise, what have i done? For me i'm only struggling to finish up my assignments which i still have some left hanging. Adding on to the fact that tennis training hasn't started officially and i have extra time, i'm still lagging behind and neglecting piano too. Aye, i have serious time management disability.
Cmon get serious Dionne, you have nowhere to go if you fail A levels.

Ever since i lost my uncle, i haven't really thought about it. I just didn't dare to, because even before i start i get this overwhelming sadness. So that's one disadvantage of being a human, because feelings causes a whole lot of trouble. Maybe knowing less people would be better, but that will ultimately make me a loner. But still i cannot imagine losing another of someone close. A bestfriend or even my family, anyone else. I won't have the courage to survive it all.
Life's like that, so sucky.

& now i gotta get back to my freaking redox chemistry.