“Because it's of my own volition.”

(I know i shouldn't be blogging, but it's my way of unwinding) :B

Neh neh neh. I've been kinda emo nemo the last few days! Too caught up with work and lessons, deadlines here and there, restrictions and everything.

But when you reach the lowest point in life, the next thing you know, you'll be back to your origin again, because that's the only direction you can go.

Happy, loving, smiling, joking.
Today i'm feeling at ease. Once again.

Still i'm feeling indolent and stressed up with the never-ending workload. Nowadays i get so exhausted i just fall flat on my bed the instant i lie on my bed. And reality check tells me that its 27 days to promos! Time flies, faster than never before. The intensity of pressure, it's overwhelming.

See, when you choose to go to a junior college, there's no choice but to do well. An 'A' level cert will only bring you to university, and if it ain't up to standard, then it practically doesnt serve much purpose. Akin to just an ordinary 'O' level cert. Now that gives me no choice but to do well and often i think how i'm not up to face that strong competition.
I know i want/have/need to do well. But it's just that uncertainty that bugs me. It just 'no more mistakes' and 'study harder' and 'be more hardworking' if not time won't wait for you.
I'm surviving by that little bit, i'm hanging on the just by a thin thread. Now i hope it's strong enough to keep me going(at least) until project work is over.
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Nevertheless it's always the lovelies that keeps me going.
Friends, family and you(:, the major donor.

Even standing on the ledge while waiting for the bus with you is delightful. The simplest things that make life great! I always wonder how my secondary school friends exaggerate so much about love and how they go crazy about it everytime but i guess right now i understand how it feels. (But heh, i'm a good example, i won't go crazy :P).
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I feel like sleeping now.
And i have my Chemistry SPA tomorrow.
*Prays hard that i do well for it!
(: