“Because it's of my own volition.”

Sometimes that feeling comes back, like I miss you so fucking bad. Or maybe just these few days. What I consciously know is that I want you obliterated. But I think, what I unconsciously need. Is you. Maybe what they say is true, I still love you. But how can I? After all that you've put me through.
You're a jerk inside out.
No no no, I don't, I really don't. I don't love you. It's just how I've been thinking about it aft conversations about you with those friends, its really absurd how I think itz still possible. I've listed out scenarios, & for everyone of them that I can think of, none of it will work out.

K i'm done thanks.
All these only took probably 15 minutes of my life. I guess this is how we live, memories lingering back & fourth. I'm just human enough, that's all. (:
Can't believe I felt that way, yuck.

Hahahahahha 221AM, I need to catch some sleep.