“Because it's of my own volition.”

I know some truth so hard to swallow.
But sometimes we confuse our feelings with the truth.
I guess it's time i start facing up to my feelings & stop running away. I don't wanna be stuck in this cycle for too long. I know how I feel but I am sure too what won't happen even if I do.

Breathe you out
Breathe you in
You keep coming back to tell me
you’re the one who could have been
And my eyes see it all so clear
It was long ago and far away but it never disappears
I try to put it in the past
Hold on to myself and don’t look back

I don’t wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I’m out from under
I don’t wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I’ll get it all figured out
When I’m out from under

So let me go
Just let me fly away
Let me feel the space between us growing deeper
And much darker every day
Watch me now and I’ll be someone new
My heart will be unbroken
It will open up for everyone but you
Even when I cross the line
It's like a lie I’ve told a thousand times

And part of me still believes
When you say you’re gonna stick around
And part of me still believes
We can find a way to work it out
But I know that we tried everything we could try
So let's just say goodbye
Forever

Please do.

I've found my motivation to study & that's really awesome. I think itz cause' of da awesome place. Serene, quiet, no distractions(other than my phone). Funny how I always look forward to studying there!
I just hope it works.